Tum Tarra Tum Tum!~

I know it was Indian Night, but that doesn't give you the right to kiss me, just because you're an Indian, dang it, man!! (on my cheek ar, duhh!). :p

Okayh, that was an awkward experience. I got many kisses before but that was really out of nowhere. Cheek-to-cheek is a polite way to greet people but you're not supposed to kiss them in the process when you're a stranger, right? Such a harassment. You're lucky 'cause you're not sober or else I'll kick you where it hurts the most. LOL.

It was a weird night indeed. You see, afterward I went to Pavilion with my mum, it was around 1.30 a.m. and we wanted to eat. It was obvious that all the kitchen's closed, let it be La Bodega, Carlos and even Starbucks was closing up soon that night...and then..AHA! "Mummy jom karaoke, tah2 ade mkn? If kitchen die x close ar".

Mummy was reluctant but when the food calls..

"cantonese kung fu noodles"

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"yong chow fried rice"

or when Mariah Carey's song calls??

"beloved mummy in the house! :p"

"ape daa, pose lebeyh! LOL."

Mummy said that was a small celebration for my birthday, yes, I was 23 on the 23rd (October) since I was too busy with the AdAsia 09 event, no celebration with the whole family ar this year. :(

"how I look so 'sememeh' that night. haihh! LOL."

P/s: This rendevous with my mum was on the 3rd and final night of the AdAsia09 event, so I was pretty much exhausted by the end of the day ar, excuse the unfinished face, (muka x siap) wahahah!

Sweet like chocolate!

"That was freaking twisted weyh..damn!" (amy, 2009)

It's obvious that something happened...but I can't tell since it's not about my life, just something to do with people I care about...again...but NO this is not about the same couple i portrayed in my 'when you say nothing at all' post.

Okayh, that's the end of that...

Ever since I started being single again, I let myself play with fire most of the time...been doing things so much differently as I used to, perhaps from trying to run far far away from the past...(kayh I know I left him, but can't u just let me play with the suspense a bit?) :p

And in the journey to heal my tortured soul and finding myself, (chewah) :p I made a complete fool of myself one too many times, and found myself ended up in places I didn't want to be in...

Thank GOD I'm over that phase...and a new phase is beginning...

So now I think maybe, just maybe it's true that I am no longer interested in Johnny Depp and wanna try kicking it with Brad Pitt instead! :p

But with YOU in the picture, (indirectly ar) my life is also freaking twisted now...

Oh, what the heck, I crush a lot anyways, really! (what the FCUK jeans, amy??) :p

JK (jiwa kacau) MODE: ON!

Alamak, I'm still a FOOL ar, putting myself in such a transparent state/condition!

P/s: Most of the details within this post are FICTIONS, so no worries there! LOL. (ketawa penawar duka) :p

"Strudel's fruit tart, nyna's treat, coz at the time I only have 5 bucks in my wallet! LOL."

Upside down, inside OUT!

Do you know what I feel? I know you know but you don't wanna tell because you don't know that I know you know that you actually know but don't want me to know that you know but I already know that, you know?? :p

Sorry sorry, Amy's currently suffering from brain malfunction! LOL.

Let me tell you a story...

Last time I said that I'm not going to class one too many times while in my high school years, and my dad was fine with that. I said I wanna work @ 7e (while waiting for Uitm intake) and I quit after a month or less, and nobody was complaining. Told my mummy that I won't get DL ever since my 2nd semester (because I thought I just got lucky the 1st sem) of Diploma, she said "it's okay". Once, while my granny was advising me to finish my degree and continue till Master or Phd, my mum said "amy nak keje mak, die tak nak sambung da" (yes, I told my mum I'm tired of studying, I wanna try working, maybe). One day I said sorry to my mum because I don't think that I can keep up with my studies or get DL for this current semester, she said nevermind, and she's not expecting anything. That was THEN...

This is NOW...

I told her this morning (eyh, tipu ar tu morning, da ptg kot?) :p "Mummy, I malas nak wat assignment niyh, how huh?" while I was still lazying in bed, just got up. I told her again few times today, and the last time was while we're chilling @ Lecka lecka in Bukit Bintang. Her response was "I wonder how orang yang completed their Master and Phd, study" and I replied, "Tu ar, I da MALAS da niyh, can't wait to finish!" :p

Anyways, you see, nobody's pushing me or expecting me to do anything. They say that I'll be FINE and I would have a bright future and whatnot (considering that I'm able to take care of myself so far, kot?). And I thank them for saying so, even though you and I both know that nobody is actually SURE about the future. There is NO guarantee is there? One can only HOPE for the best, right?

p/s:

My mum's quote of the day that I LOVE:

"the only thing actually, lelaki memang GATAL!" she said that while conversing with my bro about relationship and blablabla in the car on the way back just now. (eyh, it doesn't have anything to do with this post, is there??) :p

Me & my heart…(we got issue!)

I came upon something funny last night if I remember it right (lotsa stuff occupying my mind right now so, excuse me if I got some facts wrong). :p Anyways, it was something I did few years ago which felt like a decade ago, hiks! And that is, writing a confession, well, sort of, for a best friend.

You know what I did? Since I find it so hard to tell her straight and I was pretty much felt guilty for the thing I did, I wrote her a short story of the actual account of the incidents, the place, the time, and the people, pretty much everything in detail. Except that I used pseudo names, but it was obvious who I was referring to. I also wrote it in a way that a novel would be, and thinking back now, that feels stupid. LOL.

I have NO idea what was I thinking for doing so, but I didn’t know how else to tell her, but it wasn’t a biggie though because the incidents occurred due to the fact that I was trying to help her in a way, right B*tch? :p Yes, it’s you ar anak uncle Maarof! (the case involving me, the E & K, rings a bell?) Hihiks!

Remembering that, now I realized why having a blog doesn’t really feel so awkward to me as I once thought it would be. As a matter of fact, it helps as much as strumming the guitar! :p I am the girl who writes better than uttering her own feelings out loud. At least I think so! Hiks!

Actually, I kinda have a BIG problem when it comes to talking about my concerns especially directly. I don’t express my feelings much to people, perhaps because I think it’s not really desirable for me to be too transparent to anybody for that matter.

But if I can confide in you, that must mean I feel some kind of comfort being around you. And I thank you for helping to lift a huge burden off me. It’s nice having someone who listens for a change (If you know what I mean). :)

Nonetheless, I love being the ear for YOU, the shoulder to cry on and I have nothing to complain against that, please don’t get me wrong. Because to the each and every single of you who confide in me, just know that it’s my pleasure to be there for you and I’m sorry if I don’t always do, but I’ll always try my best to, you can count on that! ;) And maybe in future, you can be there for me too when I really need you to. Perhaps?

P/s: I just happen to write this post even though the actual post I wanted to write was supposed to reveal a whole lot more and nothing to do with what I wrote here. But I can’t seem to find the right words to do so, but then I guess, maybe I am NOT ready to be that much transparent after all! :p

" :p "

So...RANDOM...

Reality kinda 's*ck big time', but in the new released movie called GAMER, starring Gerard Butler, the 'reality' was pretty much FCUK jeans -ED UP! :p But that's not the point here...(ini hanyalah iklan to seduce :p you to go watch the movie, hiks!) But the ending was not satisfying at all...and still, not the point here..hihiks!

Okayh, now back to the points...

1. What happens when you think your FATE is kinda playing you?

2. What if YOU kinda have the ability to predict future or premonitions just like in 'Final Destination' movies?

3. What if you can't do anything about it, but instead, you need to just lay back, and relax, & accept it, as it happens?

It must be 's*ck big time' for you, right? (see, see, it relates to the intro of this post) :p

FYI (for your info):

I have no idea why, but I kinda feel like the first point lately, so I thought to myself, "Wouldn't it be great if I can be exactly like the second point", but since GOD pretty much decides everything, I guess all of us just have no choice but to oblige to the third point, isn't it??

Now tell me if anyone actually get me...hihiks!

P/s: Excuse the not-so-straight-to-the-point writing, I guess this is due to the fact that the kitchen's cabinet door knocked my senses off me, last night. (ade ke patut it fell on my head? naseb x bocor pale wa!) LOL. Aiyoh, just my luck! :p

When you say nothing at all…

Perhaps for guys, they love us more if we don’t talk too much, don’t nag much, don’t complain much, don’t gossip much, or don’t cling too much…

But what they don’t SEE is that…

There are so many things we don’t like them to do, but we never ask them to…like…

Don’t yell much, don’t scream too much, don’t order around much, don’t control much…

Despite all of that, we still love them, obey them, and tolerate them, but what good will it brings to us? They’ll still leave us when they feel like it…and we can’t blame them ‘cause they’re guys…they are bound to feel incomplete when we don’t do as they say…bored when we don’t entertain them…’SPARK’less when they want someone new or we’re just no longer relevant, as in, we’re no longer their ‘object of desire’…and we’re the ones who are to blame because we don’t know how to take good care of our boyfriends? (what the FCUK jeans?)

However, what they don’t REALIZE is that…

As much as they can’t stand us, annoyed with us, irritated, or unsatisfied…we can feel the SAME damn thing, but we still oblige, still love them unconditionally, and wanna work things out because once we LOVE someone truly, we just TRULY do…

Ain’t LIFE just ain’t fair??

But what to do? It’s GOD who made me & you…

So girls...

‘PASRAH’ is the word…

GOD has plans for all of us, if your relationship doesn’t work, there must be something wrong with the guy, or perhaps it’s really you…take time to reevaluate, it could be something wrong with you, or GOD find the guy to not suit you…Perhaps you deserve better, perhaps he deserves better…and perhaps this is just a platform for you to get ready for someone TRUE…in the FUTURE, I mean…

So, please, please, PLEASE, don’t lose HOPE…

Because it is GOD who made ME, HIM, and YOU.

P/s: I know this situation can sometime be relevant to guys as well, (not all girls are innocent) So, this post is also for YOU (the guys who aren’t lucky too). BTW, I can only include examples within the post, so, you ought to dig deep and read between the lines to really get it. TQ.

I say tomato (to-may-to), YOU say tomato (to-mA-to)!

So, what happens when a girl who's happy-go-lucky, positive (not all the time ar) and doesn't take her life too seriously met a guy who's ill-tempered, negative (also not all the time) and take life too seriously (sometimes) at a party? NO, they don't connect instantly or live happily ever after, that only happens in MOVIES, not REALITY!

However, there are exceptions for the ones who are lucky, but that's not the point here. :p

Okay, if you haven't notice, this post is not exactly about international language barrier, I mean like the Japanese trying to communicate with the Koreans kind of thing, which they don't understand each other. Oh no no no!

What I'm highlighting is actually the barrier caused by the language of the mind, (I don't know what else to call it) like when I say 'A', you take it as 'B', and when you say 'C', I thought it was 'D', get me? :p

Picture this, if I say, "You have to go around the field three times while screaming 'I LOVE YOU' out loud so the whole neigbourhood could hear it, then only I'll forgive you", what would you think of me?

a) I'm totally OUT of my mind.
b) I watch TOO much tv.

c) a + b

d) I'm kidding!

e) None of the above.

So, what your answer would be?

Wait, let me give you a little bit of a HINT:

1. We were fighting over something really, I mean really, SERIOUS.

2. We broke up.

3. I don't wan't to talk to you, so, we were only texting.

Would you change your initial answer now??

FINE, I admit, it was my fault entirely. I was not supposed to joke around while dealing with serious matter, but, sumpah weyh, I was just kidding!

But of course, different people would have different sense of humor level, and stuff like this are bound to cause misunderstanding, you can trust me on that.

My TWO CENTS' worth of the day:

"If you find yourself fighting like cats and dogs on small matters constantly, there must be a communication problem between the two of you, work on it. But if all else fails, RUN FOR YOUR LIFE!" :p

P/s: This post is NOT meant for anyone, DOA, okayh? (dead or alive) :p *V* (that means PEACE!) :)